It has been good to get back to work again. I never would have imagined not liking vacation or my time off… but it really wasn’t healthy to have so much time alone. Thankfully I had a pretty good week… or maybe it was more that I didn’t have a bad week for once.
I am in such a weird place right now. With everything in my life up in the air, I really don’t have much to hold onto. It is strange, but I am not feeling overwhelmed by my situation. At least in this moment right now. I feel as though I am learning to lower my expectation in life, towards people, and even for myself. I am far less likely to be hurt, disappointed, or frustrated if I can learn to curb my expectations. It is hard though… I want to expect more in life.
It seems to be a fine line between lowering my expectations and letting go of what little hope I have for the future.