I was walking to a restaurant tonight with one of my best friends and out of nowhere a woman walking passed told us “Go back to Jesus.” We both looked at each other and back at her to make sure she was speaking to us and she turns to me and said “You in the purple shirt, go back to Jesus.” It was such a bizarre experience and caught both of us completely off guard.
As we sat down to eat, my friend asked me if I thought she directed it at me because she thought I was gay. In all honesty, besides the purple dress shirt that I was wearing, I do not come across as being particularly flamboyant or fashionable. Almost embarrassingly, my boss wore the exact same shirt to work today so I doubt that it had anything to do with looking a particular way. Still, I could see how compared to my friend who was simply wearing a T-shirt and jeans, I could possibly have come across as looking a certain way… though I still can’t imagine it.
Regardless of the woman’s intentions, due to how out of the blue her comment was made, it stuck with me. As I drove home tonight, I continued to mull over her words and wonder if God may have given her a word that I needed to hear. I know that regardless of how simple a statement it is, I do need to “go back to Jesus.” I am caught up in my life’s circumstances. I constantly am allowing myself, my friendships, my community and my church to dictate my view and relationship with God.
I was reading Isaiah 6 this morning and was struck by the overwhelming awareness of Isaiah’s sinfulness in response to being in the presence of God. God purifies Isaiah through the coal brought from the alter. Only once his sin is atoned for and guilt taken away is Isaiah able to be in the presence of God. For myself, it is only by the blood of Christ that I am able to be in God’s presence. As simple as a concept as that is, I constantly am working my way towards a connection with God and I need to recognize that my efforts are futile.
As strange as it was, perhaps the word to “Go back to Jesus” is the very thing I need to hear and be reminded of right now.