Today was a good day. It is a rare thing for me to be able to say that at the end of the day, especially on a day where I did not leave the house even once. I woke up to realize that it was pouring rain outside and as a result I didn’t go for my normal jog. Usually this would result in me lying in bed for an extra hour and in the worst case, going on the internet and looking at porn. How pathetic is that…waking up to porn?
Thankfully, this morning I managed to get out of bed and get a good start on the day. I created a list of all the things I wanted to accomplish during the day. This included everything from doing the laundry, contacting half a dozen people, preparing to lead our Bible study on Wednesday, and of course continue with my job search. I ended up with a list of 31 different things to get done. It is 10:30pm right now and I am currently accomplishing my 20th task. Not too bad.
I also decided to implement some spiritual disciplines to my life. I deeply desire to hear from God right now regarding my future and the steps He wants me to take. More than anything, I really want to utilize my down time to be effective and efficient, rather than pathetic and lazy. It is so easy for me to fall prey to the desires of the flesh. My hope is that through practicing some spiritual disciplines, I may slowly be able to bring myself to a place where I do not get in the way of being be used by God and hearing from Him.
Tomorrow I am heading out early to take my car to the mechanics. I am praying that the financial damage is not too painful. Even though I currently have no income, I know that I need to take care of things or else it will cost me more later down the road. Though I hate to pull a cheesy parallel, it is very much like my life right now. There are clear indications of areas that I need to work on in my life and yet I ignore it to be dealt with on a later day. It is stupid really… since I know I am setting myself up for serious trouble. Sometimes I just have to dive headfirst into the crap and face it head on.
I am also meeting up with Will for dinner, which I am always look forward to. Though it isn’t always easy to be open and vulnerable, it has been cool to see how God is working in both of our lives as we walk together on this journey.