Job Fail

Unfortunately, I found out today that I did not get the job I interviewed for on Monday.  Obviously I am disappointed hearing the news.  I was truly hoping to land that job, but I guess God has got something else planned for me.

More than anything though, I am getting very tired of my life.  It is hard to wake up every morning and look forward to a day of sitting in front of a computer screen, hoping to use it to find a job instead of screwing up and wasting my time looking at s*** on the internet.  I wish I could figure out a way to do something useful with my time, but it is definitely difficult.  The loneliness is starting to kick in as well.  There are definitely some days where I end up not interacting with anyone or leaving my building.  I have got to do something with myself before I turn into one pathetic mess (or perhaps I have already reached that point).

I am trying my best to keep a schedule and do what I can to stay productive.  I wake up, go for a run, eat breakfast, spend an hour doing devotions and then after that it all depends on the day.  The days that I make a check list of things to get done, I usually do better than the days that I don’t.

Trusting God right now is getting really tough.  I want to believe that He has something lined up for me in this life.  I am completely willing to do whatever He calls me to, but at this point still feels like I am just waiting.  I hate waiting…

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2 thoughts on “Job Fail

  1. Have faith in yourself! ‘Tis quite hard to find a job nowadays due to the limited number of positions and a huge application pool. Glad to hear that you are being more active in life and keeping a checklist to help yourself get motivated. No matter what happens, continue trying and trying, and never give up in life!

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